Monday, May 26, 2008

Profound Love

The words "profound love" appeared very clearly in my mind just before I awoke Saturday morning. The word profound means "originating in or penetrating to the depths of one's being, pervasive, intense, thorough, and complete." Not coincidentally, this message came to me the morning after meeting my former partner in a rural section of Virginia.

In the past, I kept my relationships at arm's length and a "safe" distance from my heart. For me, to love someone was conditional on them behaving in a way that was acceptable to me. When they stepped over my line too many times, I stepped out. Commitment was based on contingencies. In past relationships,
my fear, I thought, was if I step over their line, they will leave me. It wasn't until this weekend that I realized that it wasn't my fear that my partner would leave, rather it was that I would leave. When the going got tough, I was gone. So was the case five years ago on Memorial Day weekend. Another full circle. Now I find myself opening my heart and life to staying the course, even when the going gets tough.

The going may get tough. If my intuition and that of two friends is correct, a life altering experience for my former partner may be just around the corner. Will I be there? Will she want me to be there? Again, all I can do is be in the moment and realize universe time is different from my current perception of time. In the grand scheme of things, around the corner may mean several weeks to several years.

If you read my last blog, you know that my former partner recently entered into a new love relationship. Despite the initial awkwardness of meeting my former partner's new love, I was able to detach and notice my behavior as well as theirs. As I did, I experienced several "ah-ha" moments about myself.

First, I now see how my life is out of balance. I've done much inner work and have formed quite a loving relationship with myself. However, I haven't allowed myself joy through loving another.

Second, I noticed my relationship skills are a little rusty. It has been five years since I have been in an intimate relationship and this weekend I got to feel the effects of that.

Third, I was able to open my heart to her current partner. I liked her immediately and I am grateful she is in her life now. My former partner is hiking the Appalachian trail and having a close buddy is important. I imagine hiking the trail is similar to being in the military. You tend to make close relationships fast because you know your life may depend on the other person.

Lastly, I opened my heart to loving what is. I love that my former partner is with this person for now. I love that I am grateful about the situation. I love that I spoke from my heart. Even though I feel we may be reunited again in some way, I love that I am unattached to the outcome.

Now I love to the depths of my being, intensely, thoroughly, completely, and profoundly. She must have felt that. For before we parted, she told me she loved me.

It is interesting that Virginia's slogan is "Virginia is for lovers." I surely benefited from the energy.

Joan Cerio - Keeper of the Keys to a Masterful Life
Life Lines - Publishing high vibrational words that serve as "lifelines" for self-transformation.

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Heart First

For the past eight months, I have been on the road, traveling to where I have been guided, doing book signings, sessions, and workshops here and there. It is easier for me to be in the moment when I am on the road. My antennas are up and functioning, keenly watching for signs from the universe.

My recent trip feels different from the others. It wasn't my universal communication that prompted me to leave Sedona and travel 2500 miles to the east coast. For once, I wasn't going head first into the great unknown. This time, I didn't think it through first and had no plans. In fact, I often said I must be out of my mind to do this. This trip is based on my feelings and inner knowing. As I wrote in my book, In the Key of Life, An Activational Journey to the Soul, our hearts create the patterns we follow. This time I was going heart first into the unknown, following its patterns, paths, and purpose.
Indeed, we are all being asked to go out of our minds and into our hearts.

My heart's guidance has lead me back to my home state and to see my former partner. My heart must know something my mind just cannot grasp. After arriving on the east coast, I learned that my former partner just recently entered into a new love relationship. Every time I allow my mind to try to figure it out, I come to a deeper realization that there is no "figuring it out." If I live in the moment, there is nothing to figure out. There is only surrender to the next moment. Thinking about the possible outcomes of this meeting just leaves my head and stomach spinning, and takes me out of the moment. When that moment comes when we do meet, I will be in that moment. Until then, everything is just speculation.

We are being asked to totally surrender to our heart's desire. It's time to trust in what our hearts are creating and get out of the way. My gut tells me that whatever happens, it will be a huge heart opening experience for me. I trust that feeling and I am grateful for the opportunity to open my heart even wider.

These are intense and incredibly challenging times. Nothing but complete self-transformation will suffice. There is still light at the end of the tunnel. By the summer solstice, I have a feeling that I, along with many others, will never be the same again.

Joan Cerio - Keeper of the Keys to a Masterful Life

Life Lines - Publishing high vibrational words that serve as "lifelines" for self-transformation.

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Distillation

Just like a fine wine or delicate perfume, we are now experiencing what it feels like to have our "impurities" boiled off and our essential nature condensed into who we really are. During distillation, impurities are separated from the desired compound through the addition of heat, which naturally causes an increase in pressure.

I've felt like I was in a pressure cooker for the month of April, with the heat and pressure building each day. Each day, the lower frequency "impurities" of anger, control, resistance, holding, and frustration drifted to the surface to be released. It hasn't been easy. I even decided to expedite the process by going through a series of "five" colonics. What is past is past and it's time to make room for what it is coming.

After this period of purification, we will finally experience the accelerated manifestation phase. I had a glimpse of it the other day when everything I asked for showed up immediately. We are in the final phases of this level of cleaning and clearing to prepare for our heart's desire. A word or two of caution: deeper levels of surrender and trust are necessary prerequisites for this accelerated manifestation.

Several of my friends, myself included, have been asked lately to trust at levels that challenge our logical minds and put our left brains into a tailspin. You want me to do what? And yet, we all know we agreed long ago to carry out our divine blueprints. Mission control has issued the next set of directives and like the good spiritual warriors we are, we keep marching forward.

Nervous anticipation best describes how I feel now. I am guided to leave Sedona on 5/5 to travel back east. Life-altering change is likely to be the result of this return. The number 5 represents change and fives keep popping up for me lately.

We will see glimpses of the light at the end of the tunnel in May, the fifth month, the month of change. After traveling in a long dark tunnel, the light seems even brighter than normal when you exit. Hooah!

Joan Cerio - Keeper of the Keys to a Masterful Life

Life Lines - Publishing high vibrational words that serve as "lifelines" for self-transformation.