Monday, May 23, 2011

Extreme Heart Makeover

Well, what an ascension ride this is!  What is your ascension "soup du jour"?  Most of my friends are experiencing major cellular memory clearing through upper respiratory or intestinal "infections."   I experienced my big clearing event on May 9, only my clearing was not with the lung and large intestine meridian.  Mine was with the heart meridian. 

It has been raining everyday for the past month except for a couple of days.  The rains flooded my front yard right up to the front deck.  I know water symbolizes emotion and boy is there a lot coming!  

The day before my big event, I noticed as I was slicing a beet, it felt like I was cutting open a heart, as this beet was heart-shaped.  Later, I looked at the sliced strawberries resembling small red hearts.  I didn't realize the significance of making note of these until after the event.

When I woke up on May 9, I immediately sat up in bed and said determinately, "I know my heart is not as open as it can be.  I choose to open my heart now."  What I forgot to add to that was "with ease and grace."   Thankfully, my guides were with me the entire day, telling me what to do next.  I pulled my tarot cards for the day and one of them was Pay Attention.  

That morning I noticed a seagull land in front of the house.  Just the other day I wondered why I hadn't seen any around the canal so this sighting caught my attention.  The seagull symbolizes deep emotional healing.  How perfect!  I knew I needed to be by a larger body of water so I walked to the lake.  

After walking along the lake shore, I was guided to walk to the amusement park, which had not yet opened for the season.  As I sat on a bench facing some of the rides, I realized that this amusement park was where I experienced the most joy as a child.  One of the nine keys from my first book is, "Joy resides in the heart."  I walked to look at my favorite rides at Kiddieland.  (Can you believe they have the same rides I enjoyed as a child?!)  Tears started welling up in my eyes as I said to myself, "I want my joy back!"  I knew I needed to get back to process this release.

On my way back, I had the thought that this release will bring about another metamorphosis.  Just as I had that thought, a blue butterfly flew in front of me!  As I approached the house, I saw a flicker fly from the ground to the tree.  Flicker medicine brings a new cycle of growth and helps us to see hidden patterns and "coincidences."

I was guided to go online when I got back, which I thought was odd.  I was guided to sign up for a teleconference that included some instant free downloads, one of which was a guided heart opening meditation.  Okay, here we go!  

Almost immediately after finishing the meditation, I felt this incredible pressure and palpitation in my chest.  The phrase "Be careful what you ask for because you will get it" never entered my mind that day!  I thought I had better call a friend and ask her check in with my energy as it felt like I was having a heart attack.  As I am on the phone with her, I am sobbing uncontrollably.  Tears that were held back from this and every other lifetime came out.  She said she saw a huge chunk coming off of my heart and that my guides were there toning and facilitating.  As all of this is happening, as though in another dimension, I am watching two rabbits play in the field across from the canal.  The rabbits came to tell me it is time to face my fears that hold me back from growing.  

I went into the bedroom and immediately went into child's pose.  I toned and cried at the same time - not an easy thing.  So much energy was moving that I felt like I was going to vomit.  After that passed, I went into the shower and used a loofah to scrub away the old skin of who I was.  I was guided to make dinner and then meditate.  As I meditated, I felt my third eye and heart being worked on and then I saw a huge intense white light coming out of my heart chakra.  I heard, "What did you think an open portal would look like?!"

That night I dreamed I lost my wallet and my car was gone from the parking lot.  The old identity is gone and along with the old journey.  All that in less than 24 hours!  

Oh, but there's more!  As soon as I opened my heart, more incredible synchronicity happened.  A woman emailed me on Facebook the next morning saying that she has been following my work and would love to share life stories.  The reason this email caught my eye is that her name is Susan.  I had just listened to a reading I got years ago that said I would meet a Susan and she would be a marker  for me.  So I looked up her website and she lives in the area and knows some of the people I know!   We emailed back and forth and scheduled a lunch meeting.

On the morning of the meeting, I saw a hummingbird at the front deck.  Joy and the ability to do the impossible, I thought.  I felt light as a feather as I walked that morning.  I noticed a sign on a dumpster that read, "Bliss."  How appropriate!  

The lunch meeting was magical.  After lunch we sat on a stoop where we enjoyed our coffee.  Next to us was a small sidewalk sign that read, "Don't delay, today is the day."  After seeing that, I asked her if she would like to teach some workshops together.   She was delighted.  When we arrived back at her car, I noticed the cars parked between us were gone.  I said, "The path between us is clear now."  We had tears in our eyes as we hugged good-bye.

Magic happens when we open our heart and lighten our load.  Healing isn't always pretty but it is worth it.  I know there are other wonderful stories of awakening out there.  You may be living yours right now.  Just know that my heart is with you.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Coming out of the Dark

The winds of change blew through last month in a BIG way.  Through the dark clouds of death, despair, and destruction, I see a light.  The light isn't off in the distance.  This light is coming from me.

I experienced my own death, despair, and destruction over the past several months.  When May 1st came, this "May Day" did not signal impending doom but impending delight.  It was as though I woke up that morning with the answer I have been seeking, duh! Light!  Lighten up.  Enlighten.  Light the way.  Delight in life!

An article I recently read said that the time for struggle is past.  We can all let go now and boy, do I have a lot to let go of!  The old patterns and fear have weighed me down long enough.  To face all of the boogie men in my closet isn't easy but it sure does feel a lot lighter after the closet is clean!

I still have some sorting to do; sweep out an old relationship here, mend a torn one there.  These relationships are the ones that try us the most - our family.  How do I remain true to myself, speak from my heart, and say things that may be difficult for them to hear, let alone understand?  Effective communication between family members can be trying but when we are literally tuned into different frequencies, it is nearly impossible. Nevertheless, this is part of my growth and clearing.

As we all lighten our load, we are able to focus our light on creating a better a world.  As more of us become en-lightened, we shine the light so solutions to our problems are able to be seen.  We realize (see with real eyes) that we have the power to change our world and when we work together, we create miracles.  It begins with the willingness to change ourselves and then shine our own light.

I will leave you with this song by Gloria Estefan, "Coming Out of the Dark".  The words to this song are so appropriate for our time.  I changed the word "on" to "from" from the lines "It's shining from me".  I encourage you to sing along if it feels right.  Happy coming out!

Why be afraid if I'm not alone?
Though life is never easy, the rest is unknown
Up to now, for me, it's been hands against stone
Spent each and ev'ry moment
Searching for what to believe
Coming out of the dark
I finally see the light now
And it's shining from me
Coming out of the dark
I know the love that saved me
You're sharing with me

Starting again is part of the plan
And I'll be so much stronger holding your hand
Step by step, I'll make it through; I know I can
It may not make it easier
But I have felt you near all the way
(Repeat Chorus)
Forever and ever, I stand on the rock of your love
Forever and ever, I'll stand on the rock
Forever and ever, I stand on the rock of your love
Love is all it takes, no matter what we face
 (And so it is!)