Friday, January 20, 2012

All the Time

When I reflect upon the past 12 years of my life and all of the "shifting" that had occurred, from leaving my job, entering into the alternative health field, ending a 14 year relationship, moving across country, focusing on my inner work and life work, changing career fields again, and after driving over 30,000 miles back and forth across the country, I realize much of it was like a dog chasing its tail. 

Was all the movement necessary?  Yes.  It is only after we climb every mountain, turn over every stone, chase every dream, and exhaust every belief can we stop, catch our breath, and then realize the truth of who we are.  Last year was a year of long needed rest after a virtual whirlwind of movement. As still as 2011 was, 2012 will bring new movement and begin a new spiral in our lives.

For many, the truth of who we are is our greatest fear.  It comes from all of the programming we received from our parents, teachers, society, government, and religion.  You can't be that powerful.  You can't know that.  You can't do that.  You can' can' can't.  No wonder we have spent years chasing our tails!  We break these chains of limitation through movement, through spinning and creating a vortex of energy focused in our core.  Only then have we amassed sufficient energy to break the god-awful grip of those foolish beliefs.

Much of our chasing is done alone.  Soul family come and go to assist us along the way but no one can chase our tails for us.  This is a path we must walk alone.

Then one day we wake up and know in our hearts what we came here to do.  We focus our energy on our work until we've done all we can do by ourselves.  We realize we need others to help us bring this creation into the world.  2012 is the year we find our work partners.  We begin to co-create heaven on earth.

I recently heard this song by Barry Manilow and felt the words more deeply than I had in the past.  I think the lyrics may express how many of us may feel this year.

All The Time

All the time I thought there's only me
Crazy in a way that no one else could be
I would have given everything I own
If someone would have said "you're not alone"

All the time I thought that I was wrong
Wanting to believe but needing to belong
If I'd've just believed in all I had
If someone would have said "you're not so bad"

All the time, all the wasted time
All the years waiting for a sign
To think I had it all
All the time

All the time I thought there's only me
Crazy in a way that no one else could be
I can't believe that you were somewhere, too
Thinking all the time there's only you

(Words and Lyrics by Barry Manilow and Marty Panzer)

To think I had it all, all the time?!  Wow.  Now comes the fun!

Here's to finding our play buddies!  I don't know about you but my work is play!